Monday, February 01, 2010
Woo~~ why does it feel like it's been AGES since I posted. Evidently Farmville has done a good job keeping me busy. Boy...
Didnt realise how um empty life was not blogging and bloghopping..yah omg WHY does it feel super long tsk.
Anw, these few days had made me particularly happy, therefore the reason I am here. Like, a lot of things made me smile and laugh or tickled my funny bone like TICKLETICKLETICKLE. You know, the little things in life. And when you come across these things, you cant help but think that whatever god has given you is so temporary. Often you take these things for granted because you know deep down that they will always stay with you for the rest of your life, but more often than not before you know it you move on to the next chapter of your life and leave everything behind no matter how much you promise not to.
Paham? Tak paham takpe.
It always makes me think about this when something random happens and it makes me smile to myself and recall them ol' days.
Or when I think of hating school. Cos I know I'll miss school life, and everthing and everyone who came with it.
This morning, I came out of house later than usual cos it's Monday, but early enough to see the primary school kids go to school. I start to recall a lot of stuff and I smiled to myself. I must have looked like them..really little, hug kiss ibu and walk into the hands of the school bus auntie as I boarded the bus, and the auntie would help me lift up my school bag a little as I climb up the steps of the bus, just like she did other kids. And so this morning, I saw my school bus auntie again..and she did exactly the same to the kids as she did 9, 10 years ago. And she looked exactly the same, doing the same things, the only difference is the bus. And I looked at myself, and I can't believe how much I've grown.
It's not the first time I saw her again after my last bus ride in P4. Occasionally, or rather once in a blue moon, I would bump into her when I go to the market (Ikr) or the shops and we would smile. But then it was quite a long long time after that until I saw her again, and it was somewhere late last year. Got to cabut from school cos it was my early day, and I alighted at the 69 bus stop in front of Springfield Sec. Was walking walking when from the distance I saw what looked like my old school bus except it looked 100 times older, and I thought hehe eh bas east view..dah lama tak nampak bas ni..so long still use this bus ah...and as it drove past, my eyes were still glued to the bus..like hehe omg so old school, and reminiscing my school bus days. Then when it passed by me, I SAW MY DAMN SCHOOL BUS AUNTIE just the way she was and she saw me and instinctively we waved excitedly to each other. Doesnt that sound too exciting?? OMG haha and I was so amazed and touched and in disbelief at how after so many kids boarding the bus after so many years, she still remembered me. And the thing is, she didnt even hesitate a single second or spare me another look before waving to me.
And I guess that is how the way things should be.
Does it take thaaat much to acknowledge each other? Maybe sometimes just a little guts to overcome some uncertainty of whether the other person remembers you so that you wont be a goon when you end up smiling to someone who doesnt even remember you.
It always makes me emo if I think about how someday people will start to leave..people you've been so dependent on, or more dependent on than you've actually noticed.
Ok enough emo. Lets end with a funny quote by our dear Soff.
In a nutshell, MLL has been agonising cos now we're doing a topic on Globalisasi, which cikgu always equates to Westernisation and Pengaruh Barat and how people now Tidak Bermoral, which annoys all of us to a great extent.
So just now cikgu was persistent that Agama was The ultimate moral compass because in the changing world, we live in Kekeliruan because we lose our morals as we hold on less to agama, depicting the example of Homosexuality.
Debate between cikgu and Soff: (somewhere along the lines of..)
Soff: Kita tak boleh assume yang orang-orang homosexual tidak bermoral (bla bla bla)
Cikgu: Tapi homosexuality melanggar fitrah manusia (bla bla) we are not made this way, God made us all normal..
Soff: Tapi kalau mereka homosexual tak bermakna mereka TIDAK bermoral apa..kita tak boleh judge dia...Mereka cuma tak bermoral dalam bilik tidur aje..
As a matter of fact, I think I agree Soff.
Didnt realise how um empty life was not blogging and bloghopping..yah omg WHY does it feel super long tsk.
Anw, these few days had made me particularly happy, therefore the reason I am here. Like, a lot of things made me smile and laugh or tickled my funny bone like TICKLETICKLETICKLE. You know, the little things in life. And when you come across these things, you cant help but think that whatever god has given you is so temporary. Often you take these things for granted because you know deep down that they will always stay with you for the rest of your life, but more often than not before you know it you move on to the next chapter of your life and leave everything behind no matter how much you promise not to.
Paham? Tak paham takpe.
It always makes me think about this when something random happens and it makes me smile to myself and recall them ol' days.
Or when I think of hating school. Cos I know I'll miss school life, and everthing and everyone who came with it.
This morning, I came out of house later than usual cos it's Monday, but early enough to see the primary school kids go to school. I start to recall a lot of stuff and I smiled to myself. I must have looked like them..really little, hug kiss ibu and walk into the hands of the school bus auntie as I boarded the bus, and the auntie would help me lift up my school bag a little as I climb up the steps of the bus, just like she did other kids. And so this morning, I saw my school bus auntie again..and she did exactly the same to the kids as she did 9, 10 years ago. And she looked exactly the same, doing the same things, the only difference is the bus. And I looked at myself, and I can't believe how much I've grown.
It's not the first time I saw her again after my last bus ride in P4. Occasionally, or rather once in a blue moon, I would bump into her when I go to the market (Ikr) or the shops and we would smile. But then it was quite a long long time after that until I saw her again, and it was somewhere late last year. Got to cabut from school cos it was my early day, and I alighted at the 69 bus stop in front of Springfield Sec. Was walking walking when from the distance I saw what looked like my old school bus except it looked 100 times older, and I thought hehe eh bas east view..dah lama tak nampak bas ni..so long still use this bus ah...and as it drove past, my eyes were still glued to the bus..like hehe omg so old school, and reminiscing my school bus days. Then when it passed by me, I SAW MY DAMN SCHOOL BUS AUNTIE just the way she was and she saw me and instinctively we waved excitedly to each other. Doesnt that sound too exciting?? OMG haha and I was so amazed and touched and in disbelief at how after so many kids boarding the bus after so many years, she still remembered me. And the thing is, she didnt even hesitate a single second or spare me another look before waving to me.
And I guess that is how the way things should be.
Does it take thaaat much to acknowledge each other? Maybe sometimes just a little guts to overcome some uncertainty of whether the other person remembers you so that you wont be a goon when you end up smiling to someone who doesnt even remember you.
It always makes me emo if I think about how someday people will start to leave..people you've been so dependent on, or more dependent on than you've actually noticed.
Ok enough emo. Lets end with a funny quote by our dear Soff.
In a nutshell, MLL has been agonising cos now we're doing a topic on Globalisasi, which cikgu always equates to Westernisation and Pengaruh Barat and how people now Tidak Bermoral, which annoys all of us to a great extent.
So just now cikgu was persistent that Agama was The ultimate moral compass because in the changing world, we live in Kekeliruan because we lose our morals as we hold on less to agama, depicting the example of Homosexuality.
Debate between cikgu and Soff: (somewhere along the lines of..)
Soff: Kita tak boleh assume yang orang-orang homosexual tidak bermoral (bla bla bla)
Cikgu: Tapi homosexuality melanggar fitrah manusia (bla bla) we are not made this way, God made us all normal..
Soff: Tapi kalau mereka homosexual tak bermakna mereka TIDAK bermoral apa..kita tak boleh judge dia...Mereka cuma tak bermoral dalam bilik tidur aje..
As a matter of fact, I think I agree Soff.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
you wont be 17 forever
Was listening to that song in the morning otw to school and it SUDDENLY, SUDDENLY hit me that I'm not 17 anymore..D:D: to some extent. It was a realisation that didnt occur to me even the night of my birthday (or the maghrib of my birthday cos my parents believe that a new day starts at maghrib) which partly explains why this commemorative birthday post to myself is 1 week late and so basi already. I was superly duper excited a week before my birthday, but then come 12 midnight it was like *cricket sound* *cricket sound*..looks at clock..minute hand moves one minute past 12..oh ok I'm 18. And despite all the smses and wishes on fb and the mini get-together with batchmates, it hadnt really hit me..or maybe I was already digesting the fact that I'm 18 but only today I realise SIALLA THAT MEANS I'M NOT 17 ANYMORE. You know. 17 is a pretty nice number.
But anw, doesnt really make a difference..not like I'm going to drink or club or drive or grow any taller.
Besides that, nothing fairly interesting happened in the past week..except that I AM SUPER EXCITED for 6th Feb HAHA omg this is so surreal I might roll on the floor.
But anw, doesnt really make a difference..not like I'm going to drink or club or drive or grow any taller.
Besides that, nothing fairly interesting happened in the past week..except that I AM SUPER EXCITED for 6th Feb HAHA omg this is so surreal I might roll on the floor.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
The year started with J2 Homecoming..basically breakfast with your class in a canteen PACKED TO THE BRIM with human beings till you can't breathe. Our class looked quite miserable but hmmm ok lah lets give the school some credit for the thoughtfulness(?) to um welcome us back as J2s.
Just back from open house..felt quite excited in the morning but it became rly boring after like..2 hours. Nehh. Dunno whether it's open house this year but I rmb open house being quite exciting last year, like so many places to go so much to see, so many things to sign up for. But anw, I'm quite excited for the juniors to come!
Yknow actually when you watch/read the news there's really nothing much now other than loansharks, the Allah issue and bad weather. As I watched on tv bout all the buzz bout these loanshark runners splattering paint on ppl's houses and padlocking their doors, I suddenly thought of something. It might sound like any other crap that usually comes out of my mouth but it is true, you know?
I wondered..if the loansharks want to 'haunt' the borrowers into paying their debts, why do they padlock the doors? If you padlock the door, how are the people supposed to get to the ATM?
Kan kan kan.
ok nvm.
GASP.
Why is Naza not in Revalina anymore?? D: (watching Juz repeat at Suria)
Just back from open house..felt quite excited in the morning but it became rly boring after like..2 hours. Nehh. Dunno whether it's open house this year but I rmb open house being quite exciting last year, like so many places to go so much to see, so many things to sign up for. But anw, I'm quite excited for the juniors to come!
Yknow actually when you watch/read the news there's really nothing much now other than loansharks, the Allah issue and bad weather. As I watched on tv bout all the buzz bout these loanshark runners splattering paint on ppl's houses and padlocking their doors, I suddenly thought of something. It might sound like any other crap that usually comes out of my mouth but it is true, you know?
I wondered..if the loansharks want to 'haunt' the borrowers into paying their debts, why do they padlock the doors? If you padlock the door, how are the people supposed to get to the ATM?
Kan kan kan.
ok nvm.
GASP.
Why is Naza not in Revalina anymore?? D: (watching Juz repeat at Suria)
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
I want to watch Singapore vs Iran tonight!! D:D: Nothing's stopping me but it's one of those things where your inner conscience says Tak Payah Sudah. That makes whining fun. But maybe I would have gone if this morning I had ended up going to school..
This morning I woke up, solat, ironed my skirt, bathed, packed my bag and got ready to go to school to study (what else). Grabbed a packet of oreos for breakfast, sat at the dining table and wanted to browse through ST but ended up reading it. And I take damn long to read the papers srzly.
And then I got sleepy..and the morning sun is starting to rise..and I dread the thought of squeezing into 59 with the morning crowd.
I told my mum "Mcm malas nak gi skolah..." And then I changed out.
AND WENT BACK TO SLEEP.
BRAVOOOOO.
Ah, darn it I'm hooked on Farmville. I prioritise harvesting my crops to doing my tutorial..bad sign!
This morning I woke up, solat, ironed my skirt, bathed, packed my bag and got ready to go to school to study (what else). Grabbed a packet of oreos for breakfast, sat at the dining table and wanted to browse through ST but ended up reading it. And I take damn long to read the papers srzly.
And then I got sleepy..and the morning sun is starting to rise..and I dread the thought of squeezing into 59 with the morning crowd.
I told my mum "Mcm malas nak gi skolah..." And then I changed out.
AND WENT BACK TO SLEEP.
BRAVOOOOO.
Ah, darn it I'm hooked on Farmville. I prioritise harvesting my crops to doing my tutorial..bad sign!
Friday, January 01, 2010
It's a wrap
2009 had been an amazing year full of opportunities and I can say I am glad that I have seized those opportunities and left with no regrets because it might as well be my one and only chance in my lifetime. There were a lot of firsts, and first times are the best times, so therefore 2009 has generally been a good year. And being the person that I am, I dont really remember or want to remember the bad times..not good for the health.
The new year started off with an awesome awesome bang thanks to RCTI's awesome new year concert which left me jumping and swooning until 3 am. That was when Peterpan was still around and Ungu was as hot as ever and Pasha was still married .
Beginning of the year was Chingay and JIP. It was a great beginning to the new year.
Moo and I had a phase which was utterly ridiculous but enjoyable while it lasted (kan Moo)and which we will remember randomly when we grow old and meet again. I also attempted to change my subject combi to H2 bio but failed..my stupidity of why I didnt choose H2 during matriculation affected me for a while but I trust Allah and have accepted the fact that everything happens for reason. As a result, I have stayed with my awesome 7A and my cosy bio class.
I also made through soccer tryouts. I swear we are like made for each other or something, love love the team! It was the start of muscle aches, shin splints, blisters and training at horrible Rocky Mountains but I never regretted joining soccer and I always promise myself to train hard to make it to Team.
March was an emotional month when we sent Zaff off for Dubai. We cried like as if she was going to live on a desolated island cut off from any contact and never to be seen or heard of again, but at that time it seemed like the right thing to do, as we are flooded with the thought of us going through JC life without Zaff.
After which was loads of tarian and SYF, and my first SYF which had a BUS FULL of supporters coming along to cheer us on. There was Abang Edna (it's not even his real name), the zool, and basically loadsa shit at the AV room!
Then was drama, Pendinding. The thought of us and the boys coming and acting together was KAKLAR KEPERRR to the max, but we went with the flow and it was a very enjoyable experience. I remember us being told off by DR for well, being the malay that we are, and I also remember one time crying while watching Aida and Qayyum screaming their heads off at each other (baik ah), and also Fawaz's spastic voice saying 'Hi I'm Aang' from the top of LT1, among other memories of drama. I guess that was a good kickstart for batch bonding and the beginning of more batch bondings to come.
After that was PW and our first CTs in RJC. It was a pretty terrible and hectic phase where we spents nights studying at Raja, living on instant noodles and tuna with bread (and still do badly). I remember that fatefulfcking phonecall which totally spoiled my Saturday night and left me crying to sleep. It was the first time in my entire teenage life that I cried because of my studies and was thinking that my life was really actually doomed. But of course, it was not to be. I will never waste my life cos of studies.
There were also other random enjoyable moments like Red Parade, class bbq, Mr KK (eh dah lama tak nampak dia eh) eating durians in class, seeing saturn and the moon at the Astronomy thing at the parade square, Diva la Futbol at The Cage, eating ice cream at Top of the Eight, Dance Nite, Manifestasi, Ms Heng the lawalawalawa, bus 59 revelations and other lepak moments.
And ohmygod how can I forget, being quarantined for two weeks for H1N1 risk. HAHA. Stuck in the room waiting and talking to Dr Chan's sister about Life.
Towards the end of the year, it was batch raya, ayah's terrible bike accident and then Cambodia.
So, new year resolutions? I dont know actually. If 2009 was a year of friendship and opportunities, then 2010 will be staying committed to what I've devoted myself to, including friendships with batchmates and juniors in the midst of Seasons and As. Let's all hope for a good year ahead, may we all stay strong, happy, and succeed in whatever we work for Amin.
The new year started off with an awesome awesome bang thanks to RCTI's awesome new year concert which left me jumping and swooning until 3 am. That was when Peterpan was still around and Ungu was as hot as ever
Beginning of the year was Chingay and JIP. It was a great beginning to the new year.
Moo and I had a phase which was utterly ridiculous but enjoyable while it lasted (kan Moo)and which we will remember randomly when we grow old and meet again. I also attempted to change my subject combi to H2 bio but failed..my stupidity of why I didnt choose H2 during matriculation affected me for a while but I trust Allah and have accepted the fact that everything happens for reason. As a result, I have stayed with my awesome 7A and my cosy bio class.
I also made through soccer tryouts. I swear we are like made for each other or something, love love the team! It was the start of muscle aches, shin splints, blisters and training at horrible Rocky Mountains but I never regretted joining soccer and I always promise myself to train hard to make it to Team.
March was an emotional month when we sent Zaff off for Dubai. We cried like as if she was going to live on a desolated island cut off from any contact and never to be seen or heard of again, but at that time it seemed like the right thing to do, as we are flooded with the thought of us going through JC life without Zaff.
After which was loads of tarian and SYF, and my first SYF which had a BUS FULL of supporters coming along to cheer us on. There was Abang Edna (it's not even his real name), the zool, and basically loadsa shit at the AV room!
Then was drama, Pendinding. The thought of us and the boys coming and acting together was KAKLAR KEPERRR to the max, but we went with the flow and it was a very enjoyable experience. I remember us being told off by DR for well, being the malay that we are, and I also remember one time crying while watching Aida and Qayyum screaming their heads off at each other (baik ah), and also Fawaz's spastic voice saying 'Hi I'm Aang' from the top of LT1, among other memories of drama. I guess that was a good kickstart for batch bonding and the beginning of more batch bondings to come.
After that was PW and our first CTs in RJC. It was a pretty terrible and hectic phase where we spents nights studying at Raja, living on instant noodles and tuna with bread (and still do badly). I remember that fateful
There were also other random enjoyable moments like Red Parade, class bbq, Mr KK (eh dah lama tak nampak dia eh) eating durians in class, seeing saturn and the moon at the Astronomy thing at the parade square, Diva la Futbol at The Cage, eating ice cream at Top of the Eight, Dance Nite, Manifestasi, Ms Heng the lawalawalawa, bus 59 revelations and other lepak moments.
And ohmygod how can I forget, being quarantined for two weeks for H1N1 risk. HAHA. Stuck in the room waiting and talking to Dr Chan's sister about Life.
Towards the end of the year, it was batch raya, ayah's terrible bike accident and then Cambodia.
So, new year resolutions? I dont know actually. If 2009 was a year of friendship and opportunities, then 2010 will be staying committed to what I've devoted myself to, including friendships with batchmates and juniors in the midst of Seasons and As. Let's all hope for a good year ahead, may we all stay strong, happy, and succeed in whatever we work for Amin.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Important note #1: EAT HANDMADE NOODLES
Important note #2: Go for a run
Important note #3: Do holiday homework and study
Important note #2: Go for a run
Important note #3: Do holiday homework and study
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Back on home soil
Back from the 2 week long trip to Cambodia yday :) Felt super disoriented and still recovering from a bit of nausea yesterday but I'm back on my feet today and getting in the flow of things. I still find myself stoning at random moments when I think about what had just happened in the two week's that had passed, and I can't believe it all happened. It was an amazing experience that I will never forget and I am glad that I came back without regrets.
Maybe I'll just give myself another day to really settle down, gain some weight and detox myself from all the canned food and instant noodles..made myself a hot cup of tea yesterday and it felt damn good. Relatives from my dad's side came to visit last weekend so the fridge is loaded with fruits like WHOAHHHH happy happy..there's starfruit, papaya, oranges, green pears, yellow pears and rock melon. :D
And the feeling when you first step inside you room again is..unimaginable. It's not so much of relief..more like a welcoming and cosy feeling, being somewhere safe and familiar. Two weeks didnt feel that long, but maybe it was more due to the change in environment.
Lost track of time for a moment when it hit me today that new year is in less than 2 weeks, and here I am feeling as if the holidays have just begun. Gotta warm up my engine pretty soon before the coming race.
Maybe I'll just give myself another day to really settle down, gain some weight and detox myself from all the canned food and instant noodles..made myself a hot cup of tea yesterday and it felt damn good. Relatives from my dad's side came to visit last weekend so the fridge is loaded with fruits like WHOAHHHH happy happy..there's starfruit, papaya, oranges, green pears, yellow pears and rock melon. :D
And the feeling when you first step inside you room again is..unimaginable. It's not so much of relief..more like a welcoming and cosy feeling, being somewhere safe and familiar. Two weeks didnt feel that long, but maybe it was more due to the change in environment.
Lost track of time for a moment when it hit me today that new year is in less than 2 weeks, and here I am feeling as if the holidays have just begun. Gotta warm up my engine pretty soon before the coming race.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
I am bloooooody tired omg want to die but I have to post this. Want to shoot her (and the ref) with a senapang gajah man. Memalukan rakyat perempuan, ish. Veh anger.
ok dah bye.
ok dah bye.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Oh hwoww the month passed so fast, and we only had what..restructured timetable? Ok with like 8 hours of malay in it (shudders) But well, we had our share of bonding time with cikgu hehe. I think I will miss that interesting woman when I leave the school.
And then its Dec which is the LAST MONTH OF THE YEAR!!!!! (runs around with hands in the air) Speaking of time, I'm reading this book from Cecelia Ahern 'Love, Rosie' its a freaking funny not very conventional love story kinda book and its super fun to read cos the whole book is made up of instant messages and letters written among the characters in the book.
And so among all the humour, this struck me as quite true yet we may not realise it.
'Our life is made up of time; our days are measured in hours, our pay measured by those hours, our knowledge is measured by years. We grab quick few minutes in our busy day to have a coffee break. We rush back to our desks, we watch the clock, we live by appointments. And yet your time eventually runs out and you wonder in your heart of hearts if those seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, and decades were being spent the best way they possibly could.'
Next week is one gila week, we have soccer camp and pre-trip camp overlapping each other, then its bon voyage for two weeks! (EXCIKENTUT!!) So I guess I'll only be back a little before 2010 FWOW!
And if you have nothing to do, go watch The boy in Striped Pyjamas. Cried like shit in the library watching it.
Nabilahs rule the world!
And then its Dec which is the LAST MONTH OF THE YEAR!!!!! (runs around with hands in the air) Speaking of time, I'm reading this book from Cecelia Ahern 'Love, Rosie' its a freaking funny not very conventional love story kinda book and its super fun to read cos the whole book is made up of instant messages and letters written among the characters in the book.
And so among all the humour, this struck me as quite true yet we may not realise it.
'Our life is made up of time; our days are measured in hours, our pay measured by those hours, our knowledge is measured by years. We grab quick few minutes in our busy day to have a coffee break. We rush back to our desks, we watch the clock, we live by appointments. And yet your time eventually runs out and you wonder in your heart of hearts if those seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, and decades were being spent the best way they possibly could.'
Next week is one gila week, we have soccer camp and pre-trip camp overlapping each other, then its bon voyage for two weeks! (EXCIKENTUT!!) So I guess I'll only be back a little before 2010 FWOW!
And if you have nothing to do, go watch The boy in Striped Pyjamas. Cried like shit in the library watching it.
Nabilahs rule the world!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I am super relieved/excited/damn high/happy omg omg. That ball of crap in my face has finally came out and my face is finally on its road to recovery I CAN FEEL IT BABY. My friends have taught me patience in dealing with it, but still, my itchy fingers has finally proven its worth by speeding up the recovery process because I TOLD YOU it is not a damn pimple, 'it is not a pimple, it is probably an infection' as the doctor had put it, and I've been faithfully taking my antibiotics. Ok I know like wth do I have to put this disgusting story on my blog in the first paragraph somemore tak menyelerakan langsung right. But, you see the whole world has seen it, talked about it (chey), so it does not make a difference right ahaaaa yes.
I want ma cheeks smooth like Cikgu Nur yeeeeha!
RGS Nite was good! Very grand, a good comeback. RGS Arts Fest was actually a tradition since the 1980s but somewhere along the line it disappeared and now it's back. Good job! :)
Ayah is home for the past few days. He is fine and getting used to the back brace and wheelchair. Ibu is being a superwoman. All of it is a blessing in disguise.
I had my jabs yday in prep for the Cambodia trip. Read again: jabS. I thought I would have the last of my needle nightmares in p6. Sakit gilzz.. And its not one on both arms, its TWO on ONE arm. It's like masuk keluar sakitsakitsakithaventfinish and before you know it another one goes in.
Amidst that, I feel things in my life are finally falling to place..at least since OP. It is true you have to believe in yourself, but it makes it even better when people actually believe in you. Lessons start again tmr..i am deflated and I'm scared that the feeling will go away.
I want ma cheeks smooth like Cikgu Nur yeeeeha!
RGS Nite was good! Very grand, a good comeback. RGS Arts Fest was actually a tradition since the 1980s but somewhere along the line it disappeared and now it's back. Good job! :)
Ayah is home for the past few days. He is fine and getting used to the back brace and wheelchair. Ibu is being a superwoman. All of it is a blessing in disguise.
I had my jabs yday in prep for the Cambodia trip. Read again: jabS. I thought I would have the last of my needle nightmares in p6. Sakit gilzz.. And its not one on both arms, its TWO on ONE arm. It's like masuk keluar sakitsakitsakithaventfinish and before you know it another one goes in.
Amidst that, I feel things in my life are finally falling to place..at least since OP. It is true you have to believe in yourself, but it makes it even better when people actually believe in you. Lessons start again tmr..i am deflated and I'm scared that the feeling will go away.